| i want to see you,
but my minds telling me not to.
its so hard trying to find reasons not to see you.
lying to you everytime you call.
its for the best..
i dont know how long i can keep this up though.
i miss you a lot..
i'll pretend i dont. |
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| your not the only one who can change.
watchme. andiblameyou. |
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| change is good. sometimes.
but then it happens to one of the closest people to you and the kind of change they have isn't so good.
it's like you see things in two complete different ways that there's no way you can even connect anymore.
they think you've changed instead, but in truth they're the one who changed.
You try to overlook it, but somehow it just seems to be too overwhelming.
Its like they left who they used to be somewhere else. I wish they would go back to their old self.
Its hurting everyone thats around them and its hurting me the most.
I've really tried to adjust to this new personality --- cocky, obnoxious and thoughtless.
To me its like I don't know you anymore.
I hope your happy that you've met new people. I hope they help you out when your feeling down,
and I hope they will be there for you when you need someone to confide in.
I hope the best for you, even if you hurt me so much.
Thank you for leading me on all these years. Your truly a piece of work. Thank you for wasting my time.
I pray that you prove me wrong. Prove that you didn't waste my time and prove that you still care about me.
I hope that you realize you've changed and I hope you straighten things out soon,
Coz if you don't then I guess its really just not going to work for us.
I hope you realize that the person who truly cared for you all this time was tremendously hurt.
The one who stood up for you whenever someone talked about you.
The one who stayed with you all these years no matter how much crap you put her through.
The one who adjusted her schedule just so she could see you and spend some time with you even if it was just for 5 mins.
The one who always tried to be there for you.
I'm trying so hard to hold back the tears, because I keep telling myself your going to change back soon.
I hope you do.
But I can't keep waiting for you all this time.
Please hurry.Please. Every single day that passes by is slowly making me forget about you.
I don't want to forget you.
I miss the old you. I don't like this new you one bit.
I want the old you back.
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